Kendrick

It is almost 2:30 the nurse just left and I can't get back to sleep just yet. I just wanted to ask you all to pray myself. The dr. from the Cooks ER said the cooks doctors have the CT and they are reading it we will see them tomorrow and begin our plan of action. It is indeed the worst we imagined and we are scared out of our minds. I try to believe "everything will be okay", but I secretly know people mean even if the worst happens. People always comment on how strong I am, but it is God and I am truely not strong, those really close know that. I am not strong enough for the worst. I have always thanked God for not taking my children from me, even though I am wicked. I have no enemies but if I did I would not wish this on them. I know God is in control I was raised to believe it. However it takes on a whole new meaning these days. Even with Cheyenne, I beg God for healing and he answers No or not now, and I beg God yet again. He is on the throne, he is in control "NO MATTER WHAT". "NO MATTER WHAT" "NO MATTER WHAT" Psalm 127:3 tells us that "children are a heritage," meaning they belong to God. He has a destiny and purpose for each of them (Rom. 8:28). Therefore, the privilege of motherhood rests not just in the bearing of children. The true privilege comes from being entrusted with the faithful stewardship of the life-gifts of God, who will one day act as His agents, both now and through eternity (Rev. 5:10; 22:5). "They belong to God" Please pray with us for him and us and our other precious ones. They are all taking it in their own way. Please when you see them tell them you love them, but don't say anything scary. I love each of you as dear family. Good Night